Catching Up!

It's been a SUPER BUSY couple weeks as we have been working hard on getting the pitch for "Focus", a documentary about adult ADHD off the ground and submitted. So let's catch up!
Since I last wrote a lot has happened! I have been continuing therapy and tackling some issues. While we haven't started specific ADHD coaching yet, we have done some good work on confronting some issues, the past, and my annoying tendency to care WAY too much about what other people think.

It seems as though, according to my psychologist, that I have always been told that things "could be worse" and now as an adult, I have a hard time accepting things when they go badly and dealing with them accordingly because I automatically guilt myself into thinking "it could be worse". Honestly, it's true. No matter what happens, and no matter how much I really need to deal with something in my life, I automatically feel guilty for even being upset about it. While having empathy for others situations is a good trait, comparing my situation to someone else and lessening its importance is not.

I didn't even realize I was doing these things until it was pointed out to me. One of the reasons that i've been having such a hard time adjusting to my new diagnosis is that I keep looking at it like "Well, it could be worse right?" so I haven't given myself the ability to process, grieve or even really accept it as something that impacts me. I've put a lot of thought into it, and hopefully I can actively stop these things as they happen going forward.

Other than the therapy front, as you may know we are filming a documentary about adult ADHD. It has been a long, busy couple weeks as we prepared our pitch documents, outlines, budget documents, title cards and movie posters and pitch video. I was honestly working in 20+ hour chunks for the last few days with very little sleep. Hyperfocus is not something that I often experience, normally I am much more inattentive than anything - however I guess it makes a difference that I am now medicated and this project is really important to me. That's good, right?

I feel like I have a hangover now though, I spent the last 15 hours passed out cold because I was so exhausted - so today im giving myself permission to take it easy for a change.

So, i'm going to go do just that! Time for some video games with my friends, sweatpants and Netflix marathon!

- S